I remember Jester talking on Twitter about reconnecting with people from his past on Facebook.  I haven’t done much with Facebook but recently,  I was talking on a Yahoo group about what inspired my story Silver Lining that will be out in July and I thought of a way to try to reconnect with some people from my past.  It worked and I connected with a guy I’d known more than 20 years ago. He was best friends with a guy I’d been seeing.

Now, for those of you who don’t know or don’t remember me talking about Silver Lining, what spurred this story was the fact that I’d been daydreaming of what it would be like to find this guy online by happenstance. So I wrote the story of a woman who left a man she loved because she couldn’t handle the age difference.  The man let her go and always regretted that he hadn’t fought to keep her. Fifteen years later they meet online, only they don’t actually realize who they are until they meet face to face and their past relationship – one that neither of them forgot – is rekindled.

It’s a romantic and erotic story filled with yearning and pain and renewed hope. Nothing like the reality of my life I assure you! *wink* At any rate, one of the authors on the group thought I should find the man from my past and I told her nah, don’t think so. I’m happy where I am and with who I’m with.  She insisted that maybe he still thought about me too. I told her he was probably married with a bunch of kids and that his wife probably wouldn’t like it if he sat around thinking about ME! LOL She let it go. But only a handful of hours later I got a notice from Facebook that I had an email from the guy who’d been his best friend. In that email, Sid said he’d heard Paul was a meth addict now.

Okay, aside from the fact that it totally shattered my vision of Paul’s life, that news made me incredibly sad. And I wondered if his descent into that hell was in any way something that happened because of what had happened to us. Not that what had happened was my fault. I didn’t feel guilty but I did wonder.  So all the little daydreams I’d had became ashes with that email. I know what meth addicts are like and I wonder how much of my Paul is still left inside him. And… I’m just sad that his life turned out that way.  Still, my Silver Lining dream was a nice one and it fueled the story which is still one of my favorite things that I’ve written.

Funny how odd life can be that Sid popped up right after Lisa told me I should look for Paul.  Very karmic.

So now, how about a nice Marcus to round out my Monday rambles? The posed stuff is awesome but I still like the Marcus candids best.


Wishing you a happy hot Marcus Monday!



As most of you know, Motley has been playing WoW. She has a guild called Questicles so I made her a forum for it. My new hosting company has auto install of phpbb boards so I had her up and running in less than an hour. She’s been enjoying herself playing both horde and alliance characters. Then early this morning, she and a friend came upon a quest that made her – and me – sad. She had to find Hilary’s Necklace.

Just looking at the two little cartoon kids fishing made me sad because I know that my friend is sad. In my head I heard that famous line from Casablanca, “We’ll always have Paris”, but in my mind I changed it to “We’ll always have Hilary’s Necklace.” And although Motley and I were saddened by the quest, we know our friend is headed out on a new quest, in a new land, with every chance to be happy once more.

In a short time, Rott will be home and I wonder if this is my chance to be happy once more or if history will repeat itself. It will be a new quest for us and it will be especially hard for Rott. But I worry all the time that everything will just go back to the way it was and I will have to walk away. It’s a very stressful time in my house right now as we prepare for his homecoming in May.

All stress and sadness and questicles aside… since it’s Monday it’s time for a Marcus. I’ve been hunting for new Marcus photos and haven’t come up with any I don’t already have. I’m gonna have to start posting photos I’ve posted before! That’s not much of a hardship though for me. I can look at him for hours. Heh.


Those shorts are way tacky but I’d be more than happy to help him take them off. *wink*

Have a great Monday everyone!


Train Wreck Winners

Thank you to everyone who came to Jester’s show last week when I was on. I very much appreciate the support. Unfortunately, with the room scrolling by and my kid’s messy writing, we’re not sure exactly WHO the winner from the show was. It’s either Catherine or Cissa, and I truthfully do not remember who all was in the chat beyond Marty, Hilly, Dave, Howard, and Karl. That’s because they either called in or we talked about them. Motley has a name written down that starts with a C. To me it looks kinda like Cathy or Catherine, but it could be Cissa. So Catherine and Cissa need to email me and I’ll send you a copy of The Wise Guy. That turned out to be a bit of a train wreck but I think giving them both a copy solves the mystery of the C name.

Since the chat winner drawing got a tad tweaked, I thought I’d draw two names here as well. Just to even everything out you know. There’s something to be said for symmetry. On this occasion it means more winners!

The winners of the comment drawing are Becky W. and Blu! Two C names, two B names. Don’t ask me how Motley did that. She’s really tickled with herself now. That’s a good thing. She was outraged that Dickiemaxx would have me tell her “For the Alliance!” yesterday. HEH. Now, she’s over it.

344682843v8_350x350_frontSo, I had a great brunch with Hilly yesterday and had a chance to catch up with her. It’s been awhile since we had the chance to get together, but it’s funny how it always seems like it was just yesterday that I saw her. I finally had a chance to give her the shirt that Motley and I made her. It’s a Queen of Snark shirt. The design is simple but really cute… a very Snackiepoo kind of shirt. You can see the Queen of Snark line of stuff at our Cafepress store. The Twisted Sex Toy line is there too. I love taking inspiration from people I know whether it’s something that ends up in a book or on a coffee mug.

Now, I know I missed Marcus last week but the book thing sorta took precedence. I know, *gasp*! But I’m making up for it now with a double dose of Marcus and then the announcement of yet another contest! WOOT!



The man looks great in a pair of jeans whether it’s on the catwalk or the red carpet. Although, he really looks the best naked or in skimpy underwear. Rawr.

This week on March 5 Pink Petal Books releases Book One and Book Two of the Tales of the Darkworld. Shifting Winds and Hot Water are the first two book contracts I got. Having these two books come out is an even bigger thing for me than The Wise Guy was. I will again be having a release party on the Amethyst Winters Yahoo Group but it won’t be on the 5th because that’s a Thursday and I do have to work. On Saturday the 7th, we’ll be partying. So from the 5th to the 8th, all the comments on this blog are eligible to win a copy of Shifting Winds and a copy of Hot Water. Hot Water has a special dedication with some blogger names I know you will all recognize. Make sure you stop by during those 4 days and leave a comment so you can be in the drawing!

I’m off to work now. I wish it would stop being summer in the spring. The heat freaking sucks ass. Oh, well. I’m off to the icy A/C of the office. Winners, don’t forget to email me at winter at winterheart dot com! Have a great Monday everyone!


In God’s Garden

Last night we lost one of our own. I didn’t know her well, although I knew a lot about her life because of the kind of person she was – open and giving. I did have the privilege of exchanging emails with her over an issue, and found her to be intelligent and full of the kind of grace that most of us can only dream of having.

Today, Lisa from Clusterfook walks in God’s Garden… Finally, cancer-free.

Stevie Nicks – Gods Garden (Duet Version).mp3 – Stevie Nicks

God’s Garden

Through the mist I see her face
Looking down on me
Don’t know the time, don’t know the place
Let her eyes watch over me
She comes in deepest sleep
Can’t help but fall at her feet
Won’t let her in for all I’ve seen
This I will take to my grave
I see her walk on water
head held up high
Playing in God’s garden
I’ll be there to hold you when you cry
The path grown over through the years
Walking on the pain towards my fears
Talking to myself for comforts sake
Holding on so I won’t break
Sometimes I hear angels sing
Their tears wash away my sins
Don’t know what my destiny will bring
Just spend eternity with me

My heart goes out to Lisa’s family. May they have the strength to endure this pain, as she so courageously did.


I Do

So I have some news. Really fun news! Next week, on February 4th, the Jester Show will have some friends of mine as guests. These guests are the authors of the I Do anthology published by MLR Press in support of marriage equality. All of the proceeds of this book go to Lambda Legal to help fight Prop 8 here in California.

The author who spearheaded this book is Alex Beecroft who is female and British. The editor (who’s been bugging me to write something for MLR’s ghost anthology) is Kris Jacen and the publisher is Laura Baumbach (whom I’ve heard will remember that I said I could write a M/M ghost story).

This idea was spawed on author Z. A. Maxfield’s Yahoo group when they were talking about ways to promote the book and I mentioned Jester. The authors got excited so I emailed Jester and he said he would love to have them on! So next Wednesday at 7 pm Pacific time, the authors of the I Do anthology will be on the Jester Show talking about the book, writing, marriage equality, and Prop 8. Please come to the show to support the cause… or Jester. Cause he’s just that cute and fun. 😉

Now, before I end this post, I need to kiss a little BPR butt and post some cowboys. And just to be fair to the men, I need to post a cowgirl. Cause ya know, Karl and Marty pointed out that I’m usually pretty good about posting hotties of both sexes. Can’t disappoint my friends. 🙂



fashion art photo. Beautiful woman

Whew! That’s pretty hot for a Friday, eh? I hope BPR likes the Marcus on a Friday one!

I have a quick update about my writing. The last contract I got will be my first book released. Sunday’s Child: The Wise Guy doesn’t have any throbbing vampire cock in it, but there is a black cat named Rambo, a klutzy witch named Brenna, and an almost mage named Randall Wise. It will be released by Noble Romance on February 22. On March 5, Book One and Two of the Tales of the Darkworld will be released by Pink Petal Books. Shifting Winds and Hot Water are part of the PPB Presents Shifters series. These are dragon shifter books. Hot Water features Karl, Gooster (Corey), and Vahid.

I’ve started work on What You Wish For, which features Hilly as a writer of Twilight-like novels. On top of that, I’ve begun the plot for my twisted version of Rapunzel which features a red headed heroine named Beck or Becks, Hellohahanarf to you and me. Marty the fairy godfather appears in both What You Wish For and the Rapunzel story since both are Twisted Tales. I’d like a Dave character someday, but I’m not sure I can come with a vehicle to accurately portray his awesomeness. I’m still pondering ideas there. Your ideas are certainly welcome as well!

That’s it for me until Monday, unless I have some spectacular news of some kind to come back and write about. I’ll have another round of my hot Marcus Monday for you then. Also, you can post what my Blogiversary date is in comments until the last minute (Pacific time) of January to be entered in a drawing for a lovely Sex Toy t-shirt or coffee mug! Have a simply yummy weekend darlins’!