Actually, my publishing cherry will be popped tomorrow on Sunday. That’s the day The Wise Guy is released by Noble Romance Publishing. This book is the most recent contract I received, but the book is being released just before the first two books of the Tales of the Darkworld.
If you want to read more about the book and all the people who did things to actually help me make this happen you can run over to the Lex Valentine blog and read the post about Release Day. Here, I want to talk about this book and the whole getting published thing in a different way. You see, these books are seeing the light of day at a cost I never realized I would have to pay. Yes, this has been a lifelong dream, a dream I NEVER thought I would achieve. The fact that it’s happening strikes at something inside me that I can’t even find words to describe. It probably feels akin to how Obama felt when he took the oath of office. But getting here hasn’t been just hard, it’s been costly.
In order to make my dream come true, I had to give up something I loved. It hurts fiercely and I wear my guilt daily. I had to give up daily reading and commenting on all your blogs. I still play catch up in my feed reader here and there and when I see links on Twitter. However, I really don’t like missing out on your lives and feeling close to all of you. It bothers me very, very badly to the point where I wonder daily if this is all worth it because I feel disconnected from your lives and that makes me unhappy.
Here’s a case in point, (I’m baring my soul and my neuroses here so bear with me) I had this idea for a little graphic, a funny little thing I could use here on this blog when I have a book coming out. I wanted to email Dave and ask him if he would make it for me, but I felt too guilty to do so. The idea was a small round graphic with Lil Dave and Bad Monkey that says “Guaranteed NO TVC”. For those of you who don’t remember the joke, Dave coined the term “Throbbing Vampire Cock” to describe some of my writing. It was hilarious and endearing and so very Dave. But I don’t feel right asking for something when I can’t even find the time to read him every day let alone comment especially when he was so incredibly helpful when I wanted to use his Hawaii images in author AJ Llewellyn’s book trailer. (AJ is now a Blogography fan because of Dave’s Ann Coulter posts!)
Despite the fact that I’m a BAD friend because of chasing this dream, I know that people like Hilly, Marty, Britt, Becky, Susan, Jen, and a host of others including my Bar Bitches and everyone of you who are reading this, all are rooting for me and continue to support me. I can’t tell you how much I love you people. And Gooster… you are the bestest Twitter hug giver of anyone in the world! (I was so close to sobbing on Friday and his Twitter hug saved me.) Eventually, I have to figure out time better or the fucking guilt is just gonna kill me and I’m not even Jewish. (See? I know Mr. Shiny is just gonna laugh at that and not come over here and kick my ass for it. Heh.)
So to celebrate the release of my first book EVAH, Jester offered to have me on his show on Wednesday the 25th at 7 pm Pacific time. I’m really looking forward to that because for one, I’m going to give away a copy of the book to someone who either calls in with a question or comment or who is in the chatroom. I’m also going to give away a book to one lucky commenter on my blog from today until the end of February.
If anyone wants to actually spend their money on the book, it will be available tomorrow morning at Noble Romance Publishing. Clicking that link will take you right to The Wise Guy’s page. If you’re not up on your kinky sex you might want to skip the sex in the kitchen scene. Um yeah, squick alert there…
I’m out of Kleenex so I need to go, but just so you know, The Wise Guy is guaranteed not to have any throbbing vampire cock.