I have some things to blog about, but I’m a little fuzzy headed so I’m sure I’m gonna forget some of em. Actually, Vixen gave me a Beacon of Light award, which I’m gonna talk about another time. That is a warm and fuzzy thing and what I’m gonna talk about isn’t all warm and fuzzy. I’m a little tired. Okay, a lot tired. My mattress is popped again so between that and other things, I’ve not been sleeping more than a couple of hours a night. I’m giddy from lack of sleep so after I blog I’m heading to bed.
First off, I have to say that reading 3 days worth of blogs in my feed reader upset me. You see, I’ve seen a few blog posts across the PRB about friends treating friends like enemies or worse. The people that I know who are blogging about these things are not pointing fingers. They aren’t placing blame. They aren’t being vindictive. (Oy. I almost said the C word. Told you I was tired.) Yet, the people on the other side of the disagreement or break up are doing or saying things that make the people I know, feel bad. Do you know how that makes me feel, tired though I am? Like an angry fucking lion. No wait. I need something meaner… Like an angry fucking teenage girl! Yeah, that’s more like it.
I have yet to find the reason why one person would stab another figuratively in the back. It’s got nothing to do with Darwin, or the survival of the fittest, or anything remotely related to anthropology be it biological or cultural. I just wanna yell at people “Whya gotta be so mean?” I’ve had my mean moments, everyone has. However, when people attack someone who was once their friend, the sting is harsher. The cut deeper. We trusted these people once.
However, instead of doubting yourself or feeling bad about the break, choose to put it behind you and move on. Dwelling on things that suck the positive energy out of you is not a good thing. I’ve said before that I jettison people that do that to me. I can’t live like that anymore. It stifles my creativity. It shackles my heart. And it plays merry hell with getting laid. So don’t do it. Believe me, when you get to my age and you realize there were so many more things you managed to do and be because you chose to rid yourself of negative people, you’ll wanna thank me.
Next, is a return to my rant on common courtesy. People do things against the people who were their friends because they are egocentric and lack common courtesy. Maybe you never heard them lack it when you were friends, but the sentiment that says it’s okay to stab someone in the back is the same one that drives people to ignore common courtesy. I just don’t get how people can not care about this. When you lack common courtesy no matter how gorgeous you are physically… you’re ugly to me.
Ack. I think I’m too tired to make sense and I’ve lost my point somewhere. Oh, wait, it’s this: When friends bust up and one talks shit, it doesn’t matter if the bust up was half your fault or all your fault… at that point, it’s all their fault. That’s my point. Is it Friday yet? I’m tired…
Since I’m about to pass out, here’s some programming notes:
If you haven’t been to lexvalentine.com please stop by. I have video trailers, a downloadable story, a blog about writing, and more. Oh, and The Divine Madness gave me permission to use their song, so the trailer on the front of Lex Valentine is final. Show me some love so I can get back to writing and make one of these open call deadlines. On a related note regarding the vids, I’m on the hunt for free or low cost stock images of people kissing, embracing, in lingerie, shirtless, anything that could invoke the notion of hot sex and/or love. I’m gonna email a few musicians to see if I can secure their permission to use their songs so I can make ‘official’ vids for my stories. I’m not hopeful, but you never know.
Next, since I didn’t post yesterday, Happy Belated Birthday to Karl! We loves Karl much here at Sunlight Sucks, so please stop by his blog and see his birthday dares.
October is a big month here. After all, my birthday is on Halloween, I write vampire characters, and I work at the cemetery. There is no other time of the year that you will find this blog dressed in anything except it’s usual colors. However, in October, we will go dark. You’ll see in a couple of weeks. It will stay dark until Nov. 2, the day after Avitable’s party.
I had to change the Bar’s URL and remove the link to register with. I was tired of getting a dozen spammers every couple of hours. It’s inconvenient and it’s annoying. Even after I removed the link to register with, they were still registering their bogus names so I took drastic measures and added a word to the URL.
Work is exhausting me. Mostly, it’s the people not the work itself. I can’t seem to find a measure of peace there. The distractions are just driving me nuts. Somehow I’ll survive this. I’ve done it before so I’m crossing my fingers that it will work itself out.
Okay, that’s enough from me. I’m too tired to make any sense anymore. Have a great Friday and I’ll see you over the weekend, either here or at Lex Valentine.