Nitpicky

Everything irks me. I’m in one of those prickly kinda moods where nothing satisfies. I look at my template and I seethe. I think about all the stuff I wanna tweak in Photoshop because I need to create something “perfect”. I read other blogs and think, why aren’t I this funny or deep? I stand at the refrigerator door, stomach growling like a grizzly bear, contemplating everything that is inside the big white box… and close the door. Nothing in there appeals. Which is fucking bizarre because for one, I have BACON. For another, I buy what I like when I order groceries. I don’t have anyone else to please at the moment when I’m buying food.

This phenomena inside me occurs every now and again. Usually, I cannot write when I’m in this mood. What I end up doing is working on the Bar character pages. Or I make something else new. I’m not sure I understand why I feel the need to build/create when I’m in a dissatisfied state. I mean, the writing is building and creating too. Why can’t I do it when I’m feeling persnickety?

I’ve got a ton of projects I’m juggling and I’m eager to do them all. Why is it that I’m more interested in breakfast at Johnny Reb’s? And not for the food either because at the moment, nothing appeals even though my stomach is protesting. Maybe I just want out of the house. But if that is the case, why am I feeling like I don’t wanna go get the mani/pedi that I have to get because the company picnic is tomorrow? (Cannot show up in flip flops without a fresh pedi. God forbid that I give someone fresh fodder to gossip about me!) I have to go to the bank, but I don’t wanna. I need to watch my races at the sim because I have a 2 year old filly who is so evenly matched against another filly that the race should be incredibly exciting. But I’m dragging my heels about clicking the link.

I don’t think I’m unhappy per se. Dissatisfied with some things, certainly. Depressed about money, always. But what the hell do those things have to do with me feeling bitchy and nitpicky and just… irritated? And before one of you raises the female banner let me tell you point blank that it is NOT PMS. I do not suffer from it. I have never in my life had excess estrogen. I am missing internal girly parts and because of that I have never had PMS. Menopause is going to be a piece of cake for me because I won’t need hormone replacement, I’m told by my doctor. I’ve never had much of it to begin with.

I guess I just have to be a crank ass every now and again. A Scrooge, if you will. Irritated. Pissy. Cantankerous. Bitchy. Whiny. Persnickety. Fussy. Disgruntled. That’s it. I’m a fucking malcontent. A nitpicky malcontent. Luckily, the mood won’t last. Something will perk me up like boobs in a water bra. This mood never lasts. If it did, I might need to shoot myself. Or change my blog template daily.

Have a great non-nitpicky Saturday, people of the Blogosphere!

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0 Responses to Nitpicky

  1. Shiny Gal says:

    Awww, Wint. I know how you feel, when absolutely nothing makes you feel good. Feeling that way really gets under your skin and ugh, it’s just not fun. It’ll pass…just keep your head up in the meantime, chicky. Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s learning how to dance in the rain. 🙂 (((hugs)))

  2. Shiny Gal says:

    Awww, Wint. I know how you feel, when absolutely nothing makes you feel good. Feeling that way really gets under your skin and ugh, it’s just not fun. It’ll pass…just keep your head up in the meantime, chicky. Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s learning how to dance in the rain. 🙂 (((hugs)))

  3. I get this way too and I blame it on impending menopause. LOL.
    The funny thing is every single one of my female friends has this “mood” thing. We all seek some “reason” that will explain it. I’ve quit trying.
    It just is.
    I can’t fix it. I can’t make it go away quicker. It does pass and I’ll be okay…tomorrow….next year….whatever. LOL.
    Hang in there and hopefully you’ll feel writing/creative again.

  4. I get this way too and I blame it on impending menopause. LOL.
    The funny thing is every single one of my female friends has this “mood” thing. We all seek some “reason” that will explain it. I’ve quit trying.
    It just is.
    I can’t fix it. I can’t make it go away quicker. It does pass and I’ll be okay…tomorrow….next year….whatever. LOL.
    Hang in there and hopefully you’ll feel writing/creative again.

  5. Winter says:

    Renee – I think it’s already passing. I did some work in Photoshop and I feel better.

    Mary – You’re a saint. I could not deal with 3 kids and a DH.

    Susan – I’m always searching. It’s never ending. But I worked on the Bar character pages today and I feel better now. The irritation isn’t as bad as it was earlier.

    Winters last blog post..Nitpicky

  6. Winter says:

    Renee – I think it’s already passing. I did some work in Photoshop and I feel better.

    Mary – You’re a saint. I could not deal with 3 kids and a DH.

    Susan – I’m always searching. It’s never ending. But I worked on the Bar character pages today and I feel better now. The irritation isn’t as bad as it was earlier.

    Winters last blog post..Nitpicky

  7. Sounds to me like you’re searching for something you haven’t yet identified. Hang in there. Keep looking. You’ll find it, or die trying.

    Susan Helene Gottfrieds last blog post..Giving you… some excerpts

  8. Sounds to me like you’re searching for something you haven’t yet identified. Hang in there. Keep looking. You’ll find it, or die trying.

    Susan Helene Gottfrieds last blog post..Giving you… some excerpts

  9. MaryO says:

    I get in the mood to. I ususally just lock myself in my bedroom and read until the mood passes. Helps everyone in my household.
    The next day I get mega pissy cause nobody decided to clean up after themselve. Yeah it is a never ending rollar coaster ride.

  10. MaryO says:

    I get in the mood to. I ususally just lock myself in my bedroom and read until the mood passes. Helps everyone in my household.
    The next day I get mega pissy cause nobody decided to clean up after themselve. Yeah it is a never ending rollar coaster ride.

  11. Renee says:

    I get in this kind of mood sometimes too. It happens. Then it passes.

    Happy Saturday! 🙂

  12. Renee says:

    I get in this kind of mood sometimes too. It happens. Then it passes.

    Happy Saturday! 🙂